Endurance

and sometimes those who knew me best
could stand to learn the rest
I am not what they see
I understand why they flee
forgotten, overlooked, passed by
I do want to try
yet I am not strong enough
to trudge through this rough
down I fall, hit by rocks
so when someone comes to knock
silence will greet them back
for no one will be forced to endure my slack
I wish not for anyone
patience, tolerance, for me, none
too cowardly to face life
too cowardly to face death
so alone I sit, silent to the grave
trying to endure this life I've made.

This is about feeling invisible and forgotten. I have felt like I have been abandoned by my friends for reasons I don't understand. I am also many times just ignored and I don't understand that either. I am a nice person with tons of creativity and I just want to share it with everyone. I just don't know what to do with myself. If I only understood what it is I do or about me that makes people not think of me as special enough or worth their time...
~T~