Blood

Drip, drip, drip.
Feel it pulse
head to toe.
Feel it stop.
Let it flow.
Drip, drip, drip.
Hear it rush
through your ears.
Hear it burst.
Let it roar.
Drip, drip, drip.


For some reason my blood was just pounding through me last night as I lay to bed and the feeling of it inspired me to write this poem. ~T

This Feeling...IDK

Feeling wretched
feeling vile
give me something
to defile
annoyance roots
anger burns
let me retch
my stomach churns
fire blown out
first sigh
never, never
shout
look to a mirror
look deep
find your soul
don't weep
match the soul to image
make yourself happy
forget to cringe
be happy.

eh...it's ok... *shrug*
~T

My Mask

I wear a mask today
but those who love me
can sometimes see it slip away
I fear my eyes give away my guilt
guilty of feeling sad
the sadness I tried to contain, spilt
what am I missing?
what do I need?
to fill this empty hole
this deep, hollow, aching...
in my soul.

Been feeling sad lately... It's like...I should feel happy with all the holidays around. But there's just so much in my life I'm trying to figure out so I can grow up I suppose. I sometimes slip up though and a sadness enters my eyes that gives me away... So I need to keep my mask on tighter I guess until I can figure this out or just give myself some time to just cry. Sometimes that's really helpful when you are feeling sad, to just cry and let it out instead of holding it all in. Hard for me though because I have been taught that crying shows weakness and I'd rather wear this mask than to cry...but then again...couldn't this mask be considered being weak too?... who knows? *Shrug*
~T~

Splattered

Falling, falling backwards,
don't catch me if I fall
the world is full of cowards
and the buildings are too tall
so let me jump
let me burn
hold your lunch
feel free to turn
splat me on the sidewalk
my broken bruised heart
now lies, permanently, stopped the clock
now we must part
you will forget me
this girl so cute
too open and caring
my heart is dead now
splattered so beautifully
on the ground.

I wrote this after heart break obviously.lol. I look back on it now and see how irrational it was to feel this way at the time. Though I cannot deny my feelings, I can learn from them by writing them down and looking back on them and seeing how foolish I was to feel that way.