Spider

Spider, spider
hanging by a thread
Land, I dare ya.
You'll be dead.
This place is just big enough
for me
and to be honest I find you
a bit creepy
crawl away and find a place
where flies will be easy to catch
and yummy to taste
Spider, spider
hanging by a thread
please don't land
It's just not safe for you
I'm afraid I'd have to introduce
you to my shoe.
crawl away
please, I say
maybe we can play
another day.

lol, squashed a spider yesterday on the floor, it was huge! and then today, fake spiders hanging for decorations for Halloween made me think of this.
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Alone

Alone in the night
my heart
I do fight
empty and aching
never to sleep
never to waking
alone in my dreams
alone in my fears
alone tonight
alone for years
calloused hands broke
calloused eyes blind
empty soul took
empty soul left behind
chips and pieces
more than enough
the hollow sound too much
being alone is tough
reaching for something
anything to hold
dying to be loved again
before I'm too old.

This poured out of me after feeling so alone w/o anyone special in my life for a long time now. Seeing other people complain about missing loved ones who have to be away from them for a while, to me it's like, at least you know they are out there and that they love you. I'm not knocking your pain of missing them, I just am jealous I suppose. I'd rather be in pain of missing someone than the pain I have sometimes of not having anyone to miss.
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Living in the Sky

If I could fall into the sky
I'd dance around in diamonds
swinging and swayin
til the night ends
morning would paint me
oranges and sunflowers
day dreamin across yellow sky
like super girl, watch my super powers
A twist of the wrist
lights up a rainbow
I'll skip along
creating gold, wherever I go.

This was inspired by the night sky. I came home and looked up into the beautiful starry night and felt in awe and wished I could just fall up into the night sky.
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Dreams and Nightmares

Suck it up
go to sleep
face your nightmares
or your dreams
Dreams will come
Dreams will fade
Nightmares will come
Nightmares will haze
forget it all
live in the moment
sleep well, sleep tight
remember that
tonight is tonight.


This is about living in reality and facing your fears and dreams head on but not lingering in stuff that is unreal. I am bad about living in daydreams.
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My Books Haunt Me

Silent meetings
filled with tears
How each page...
each phrase...
echoes in my ears
Drop a bomb
to my heart
make me dream
of a new start
Happy laughter
smiling hearts
Hopeless frowns
silent screams
Playing part
pages echo
in my dreams
Sleepless nights
of imaginary things
Close the book
turn out the light
But faces still cry
with each passing page of night.


This was inspired after finishing reading the Hunger Games series by Suzanne Collins. I got too emotionally attached to the characters and felt their pain greatly. I do that alot, get attached to characters that aren't real, mostly in books and then I want to recreate the story and make it something happy, that is how I'd like it to be. But then I remember that it's already printed in ink and I can't change it. and I also tell myself it's not real, but my emotions are real, so it's hard. *sigh* :(
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Eyes

Framed with fringe
glossed with tears
fogged up windows
in crash fears
drip in pain
upon the frame
the soul resides
from you
I cannot hide
open windows
into my soul...

Your eyes are a window unto to your soul. beware.
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Silence of being silenced

Twirl, slash
let go the sash!
Twisted in fury
sunk in hatred
curl, push
don't make the hush!
see the envy
feel the greed
stealing, stolen
watch the breath, go
sucking, shallow
gulping, desperate
strangle, die
hear the hush.

This is kind of a figurative way of saying being oppressed or silenced from your point of view or opinion is a way of socially and politically strangling a person from their rights and freedoms.
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Carefree

Ten penguins
in a row
waddle, waddle
through the snow
going, going
where? I don't know.
Ten penguins
in a line
slide, swim
snow or shine
playing, playing
why? to pass the time.

Oh, how nice it'd be to be a penguin somedays...
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Let's Escape

Lion, lion
on the wall
aren't you
afraid to fall?
Do you hang
by your claws?
Don't play brave
just for me
Don't you crave
to be free?
Lion, lion
on the wall
don't be
afraid to fall
I will catch
sure and true
atop your back
I will climb
and we'll run away together
leaving this classroom behind.

This came to me today at work... I like it. :)
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This Feeling...IDK

Feeling wretched
feeling vile
give me something
to defile
annoyance roots
anger burns
let me retch
my stomach churns
fire blown out
first sigh
never, never
shout
look to a mirror
look deep
find your soul
don't weep
match the soul to image
make yourself happy
forget to cringe
be happy.

eh...it's ok... *shrug*
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Fire

Windows catching
on the brink
pitter, patter
pitter, patter
dripping in the sink
Glazed smoke
hides the charr
click, tap
click, tap
reveal the scar
Doors banging
opening to none
creak, crash
creak, crash
this place is done.

This was inspired by my ex-fiance's house burning down last week. I was sad to hear about it. It was my home for three years. I was sad to lose some of my own items that I hadn't been able to recover yet. I was also sad for him and his girlfriend and baby that they lost everything they had. Also, thankful that I was not still there, for I would have lost everything. I don't think I could handle that.
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Help Me Escape

Drowning under flourescent lights
swallow me whole
the dark night
in a hole of selfishness, sinking
I tear my soul
where am I going?
The road is lit
lined with light poles
but I still can't see it
I'll follow tails lights
but it takes its toll
swinging on the tail of this kite
hoping to end up somewhere for safe keeping
where I hope, want and am meant to be, full.
happy. content, life done sucking.
tired... tired of sleeping. Stop it!
this dreaming lull
I need to escape it.

Feeling very emotional his weekend. Things going on that are making me feel like I'm stuck in place, not really moving. I am not happy. Why can't I achieve in life, what I want? It's so annoying... grrr. *cry*
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Summer Day

sweet berry, fill me up
let that syrup
stick to me again
sing the fragrance
through my skin
that longs for silk
and rough again
sun kissed
angels, shine away
hold me in this
summer day.

Ahh! Summer is here! :) June is one of my favorite months, mainly because that's when the mulberries are ripe for eating. :) yumm. This is how my day was today. Mulberries, soft freshly shaved legs (went swimming) and freckles (angel kisses), continued to be warmed and darkened by the sun's rays. Happy Summer!... I hope...lol. This summer I turn 25... :/
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Leave it Behind

That rear view mirror
is like chocolate
you crave it
That rear view mirror
is bitter sweet
it's hard to forget
That rear view mirror
calls my name...
I wanna punch it
That rear view mirror
makes me regret
makes me sad
That rear view mirror
needs to disappear
so, I'll leave it behind.

So many times we find ourselves drawn to things that remind us of the past, things we need to forget and move on from. I found myself drawn to something like that today. It's an awful feeling of despair, regret...thinking... what if? But we can't change the past and some things are better off left there. Move on.
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Invisible Hands

Faceless friends
hold out their invisible hands for me
silly me, I smile
and jump into the crowd, crowd surfing
as I hit the floor
I begin to cry
always there, invisibly
supporting me...
ya right.


So I wrote this poem after checking my email to see if anyone I had email my story I'm currently working on to. Most of the people are friends I hardly see ever, some are family though... But it's been 2 days and no one has replied yet about what they think... I think they haven't probably started even reading it. I know some didn't even get around to it the last time I sent out the email w/ the previous chapters... So frustrating. I really need reader imput and feed back and I'm getting zilch. *sigh* Can't always be easy writing...
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When the Pain Hits

Twinges of pain beat at me
What will this mean?
How do I explain to someone who wants to be with me?
with each pinch,with each wince
I see my future bleak...
everything is uncertain
Trust in God, I think
Maybe something wonderful is behind this curtain
the pain is a veil
that only with the Lord's help can I lift
Until then, I will just hunch over and endure
when the pain hits.

This is a personal, literal poem.
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Time Flies

Time to live
Time to die
All we can be certain
is that time flies
Out the door
out the window
over the fence...
oh, how it blows...
Carried away on the breeze
we try to reach for it
we wish to make it freeze
Lost through our fingers
we chase it
Higher, higher, it flies
we cannot reach it
we sink to the ground
to cry
we should have listened, payed heed
when they told us, time flies...

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Within

In the silent of the night
I hear your stars echo bright
your love embraces me
Yet still, fear, in my heart, does beat
Can I hold this change?
As my eyes search the pages
Where will I stand?
I just wanna take your hand
Take my fear away
In my heart, I want you to stay
Forgive me
Your love in my heart,
I want it to beat
Holy is your name forever.
Amen.

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Freedom to Believe

The truth lies to me
telling me things
that contradict what I see
reluctant freedom
hops away
searching for that new day
the promised one
which fills our hopes
the one in which gives us purpose
a reason to cope
with empty hands...
empty minds...
empty hearts...
we traverse this land
seeking that which is
already dead
It died in our empty hearts
empty minds
empty hands cannot hold
that which we hope
to fill our souls
look above, look within
then you may discover him.

This just suddenly came to me. I cannot describe sometimes how these poems form, it's just like my hands writes and when I'm done, I'm like... Wow. :) This is about the lost souls of our world, how we search every where for something to fulfill our lives and we neglect to look where we need to.
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Waiting

Again Again
it slows to a creep
keeping my mind fogged
and heart bleeped
you sit there idle without line
what you crave you can have
if you find the balls
to grab it and stuff it in the bag

I'm here waiting
what to see
again again
I'm stuck waiting

The salty drips tick away the time
slowly slowly eating away the rhyme
Time slows, oh not for me
with all my heart
I ache to see
The love that should threaten
to besot me...

I'm here waiting
what to see
again again
I'm stuck waiting


This was a little different of a poem than I usually write. This was more in a verse that could be made into song. I was listening to old Paramore Demo songs and was really inspired to try to write it in verse. I think it's pretty good.
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Never Ending Heart Break

folded, closing
ending this tale
my heart is shuttered
sobbing in jail
each try was worth the risk
but too wounded, it now leaves a trail
waiting, waiting for one to follow
lift me up, for the breeze to sail
broken and lost
I sit by the trail
someone will come along eventually
but that too may fail
that's how it continues
like chain mail
leaving my heart in pieces
always ready to bail.

Just wrote this a moment ago. I just feel like from one relationship to another that it just leaves more and more wounds to heal and that with each new relationship I try, I'm just waiting for them to fix the broken heart the last one left. I don't think that is fair to them. So I feel like now I'm blocking myself off, letting myself heal and waiting for the right one to come along when I'm ready and when God thinks I'm ready. Lord, sometimes I think I'm ready...but that's only myself lying to myself.
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Treasure Hunting (my title to a poem not mine) by Ruth Haris

I look
I search
I hope to see
something that appeals to me
something unique or maybe not
buttons, milk caps, straws the lot
a blue-green shape just caught my eye
I don't think I can pass it by
whatever it is, it makes me glad
and so, I'll put it in my bag!

This poem was listed in my curriculum for next month at the daycare center I work at. I thought it was very cute and had to share it. :)
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Sun... Rise!

And she rises with a crimson blush
Debating whether or not to grace this world
The trees quiver and animals hush
waiting, waiting for that one moment
She's so lovely, so bold.
And as she rises, slow and high, it's the moment
To live and love and rejoice
Over this land and sea, the whole world
she has a heart beat, she has a voice.
For God's love made such beauty
The day he made this world
It's beat is ours and we need to keep it beating.

Driving to work this morning there was the red sun, peeking up over the earth. Made me think she was blushing, shy, timid about gracing us with her presence. lol.. Not that I believe the sun is a living being that you could call a "she", it's just that there's something so feminine about the sun, it's beauty, it's strength, it's ability to create and sustain life... *shrug* Thank you Lord for our beautiful earth and the wonders that keep it alive and us alive.
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Falling Asleep

Falling, falling
with the beautiful lullaby of cicadas.
Let the cool breeze carry me away
on this symphony of wonder.
Lungs engulf me
Take me high
Until I reach my dreams.

Spring is here and how nice it is to fall asleep with the window wide open.
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Secrets

This ocean of dirt
illuminates the night
revealing night's secrets
forget the hurt
prepare to fight
we all have our secrets
Be on alert
turn on the lights
time to cast away our secrets
secrets only hurt
secrets make us lose sight
Secrets...secrets...secrets...

I think this poem is mostly obvious. It's about secrets and how everyone has them and how they can make a mess of our lives sometimes.
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Not a Poem... :)

Haven't written any poems in a while so I have decided to share just these couple of little quirky things I wrote down. I usually write down little lines that pop in my head randomly because sometimes I can elaborate on them and turn them into poems. But I haven't been feeling too poetic lately. Maybe soon, Spring is finally peeking out and all the new life can be inspiring. :) Enjoy!

Coded words mean to me.
something secret,
something I'm not supposed to see.
So why write them down?
They just taunt me
and make me frown.



A bubble of laughter came with the green blush of the earth.

Happy Easter! It's in about a week. :) Hopefully I'll get inspired soon. I know once I get to start mowing grass, the words start flowing. LOL. Idk why but I always think of stuff while riding the lawn mower and listening to my ipod. ;p
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Her

Each breath brings her closer to tears
what has she done with all the years?
Las Vegas stole part of her soul
Now she searches for a new goal
God granted one small blessing
Now it's time for nesting
what path will drop before her next?
only hope will get her through the tests.

This one was inspired by a friend of mine. From my point of view, she has had a rough time through life. But hopefully things are looking up from now on.
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Endless Halls

Wastefully wandering the endless halls
watching the steps, afraid to fall
each door looks the same
turning in circles, I wonder who to blame
everywhere I turn, the walls are lined with mirrors
scared of my own reflection, I scream out in terror
Help Me! Help Me! I can't get Out!
...but no one can hear me, silent is my shout.

This one was inspired by my dreams, how sometimes I get lost in my own thoughts. It feels like I just wander the halls in my mind, opening doors as I come to them. Feels like I can get stuck in my own head that way and who's to blame? only myself.
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The Dark

As I lay myself down to sleep
I pray the Lord my soul does keep
for should I wake in the night
Lost in the darkness, trapped in fright
Guide my eyes, let them see
I'm all alone, it's just me
close my eyes and cozy back to sleep
all you have to do is ask and of course your soul He'll keep

This came to me as I was laying in bed ready to go to sleep. I am still scared of the dark sometimes, so I suppose that is what inspired me.lol
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Let Freedom Ring

As my spirit drowns in this world
I hope that my purpose will be fulfilled
I exist to be pushed, pulled, carted.
my mind and soul ripped and parted
shape me in the mold
I will follow, do as I'm told
whisper to be heard
I'll keep up with my herd
Glass engulfs me from all sides
I will have to give or hide
but maybe I'll have a chance
If mother nature continues to rip my Nation's pants
reveal that arse
put us on a new course
I wish to be free
in a Nation ran by insanity.

Inspired by the government and how I feel our current president is making the country not free.
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I'll Love You Forever

Layer me with your powder
I'll brush it off and scream louder
Get off me!
Leave my heart and mind in peace
This chill that echoes down my soul
Is reminiscent of the pain that left holes
but as you keep trickling down upon my head
I question if my love for you is dead
I hate this thought
but my mind is snagged, it's caught.
Give me a shovel, I'll dig myself out
It's not as if I expect you to pay attention to my pout.
I will enjoy you from afar
maybe scoop you up and put you in a jar
Be my snow globe and I'll wind you up
Listen to memories and fill my cup
That's all that is left
I'm happy with the love I've kept
Forgive me and I forgive you
For our love is gone, but it was true...
I'll always love you.

I wrote this today at work. It snowed heavily today and the snow helped inspire me as well as a dream I had last night in which I dreamed about things with my ex.
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Dusty Questions

easily we trust one another
with our heads in the clouds and hearts on sleeves
to question, is considered a bother
being called into question, leaves many peeved
why should we take everything at face value?
I trust only those I love
but even those can deceive you
that's a betrayal undreamed of
who's to say the person behind the screen
is who they claim?
this credence given, is not what it seems
don't be made asinine, don't be shamed
take back your truth
clear away the dust
lying is uncouth.

~ This started out light hearted when I first started writing it, but ended up being more serious. It was first inspired by the fact that I was playing an online game called World of Warcraft and I was on a male character and so I pretended to be a different person to mess around with someone. It was quite humorous and they didn't mind. But when thinking about it, I considered how serious these identity lies can be or just any lies... people just trust people, it's our human nature to want to trust everyone. What do you think?
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Clock Watchers

minute by minute
the time creeps by
each tick moves it
boy how the time flies
where did it go?
into the past
the future is now, unknown
live like it's your last
no turning back
keep moving, living
take time to pack
be versatile, giving
tick tock, tick tock
pay Attention!
don't watch the clock
live, live, live, til it ends.

So sometimes I think we all watch the clock too much. Just like your life and be happy.
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Jealousy has NO FLOW

jealous is a word that makes me cringe
it can creep into your mind, heart and soul
and make them come unhinged
it slithers... slides
slipping in where it's not desired
finding a cozy spot in which to hide
it will sneak up on a soul
if given too much leeway
it will burrow in a deep... deep hole
let it consume, let it feed
put on the collar...leash
and let it lead
soon it becomes a house pet
but it needs put down
take it to the vet
evil creatures such as this
just don't belong...
don't deserve to exist.

Jealousy was on my mind a bit today and it surprised me. The title is humorous to me because the poem has no flow... I couldn't get it to work at all... /sigh. they can't all be winners. lol.
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Open Windows

Open windows reveal to me
another world,
someone else's place to be
rushing by, I hope to glance
into this world
a hope, a chance
what lies behind those blinds
could change the way we think
do they have things to hide?
are they the next link?
so as those windows flash by
glance and you might see
a man who knows how to fly
or a woman going pee.

LOL, so I wrote this humorous poem today. The idea came to me when I was driving home from work and realized that when I see houses that have their lights on inside and curtains/blinds open, that I look to see what's going on inside the house...I guess I'm nosy...anyone else do this? lol.
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The Book of My Life

lost among the pages
I long never to leave
another world, different faces
the longer the book
the faster I read
the fantasy, my mind took
flew away, gone at last
uncertain of reality
escaping it's firm grasp
but what will become of me
as I burrow and hide
into the books I flee?
a great adventure
is what I long and crave
yet in reality, I will never venture
I am scared
because at the end
pages will sit idle as they were all I cared.

I reread the last Harry Potter book between last night and today. It made me feel very melancholy at the end. I hate the prologue at the end... it makes me sad to have missed 19 years of Harry and everyone else's life. Why do I feel so sad to miss a character from a books life? It wasn't real. Yet everyday I hide myself away, reading books, my head lost in my own world of imagination. I miss out on parts of my own life. Things I find myself scared to face. I am a coward. Too scared to live my own life the way I truly want to, in order to be happy. I can live vicariously through my books...but when it comes down to the end...we all die and what true love and life will I have to remember? Pages of print telling me what their adventure found... while I sat idle, too scared to grab my own. Fear of the unknown... can destroy life... If only I could now find the courage to grab my life and make it be what I want it to. Though with my books of fantasy, I find I long for those things that we know not to be real. Things of fantasy are my longing...and unobtainable. From a young age I always wished to be born in a different time, a different world. I do not fit here. I love my family but I long for something more...which I am unsure of. I'm not sure I know how to be happy anymore. I wish I knew how to find happiness. It's just an ongoing battle within myself for my life. Wish me luck.
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